Yay for reading new postings in blogs!
I don't have a huge amount to talk about, and have passed my 7 day limit by a day (what a horrible human being!).
I woke up this morning (It was actually morning ^.~ It hadn't hit noon yet) and after a bit of procrastinating and reading of articles I decided to actually pretend that I'm an adult and go upstairs like a day-dweller. The first thing I did was look out the front window to see if my family was home (their SUV tends to go with them places). After seeing that their car wasn't in the driveway I felt a huge weight lifted off of my shoulders and a feeling of relief... that was until it occurred to me that it only takes one of them to drive it. So my mom usually follows my dad around anywhere he goes, so I wasn't too worried. Still the fact that I feel a sense of dread at having to spend time with my mother is sort of a bad sign when Travis and I have no choice but to live with my family until the house he's signing paperwork to take off of the market is actually ours.
So while I started coffee, I started thinking. I've seen some horrible things about having roommates. People not getting along, hatred flying back and fourth, fire and brimstone, friendships crumble to dust. So for the first time in this whole process, I worried about having a wonderful (and disturbingly reasonable) friend of mine as a super long term roommate. So instead of having a panic attack and watching the world crumble around me, I started thinking about WHY I worried about it, and WHO I heard the horror stories from.
Well the WHY is obvious, I have some serious commitment issues. I'll commit to anything really, but when it comes to financial and "official" commitment I shit myself (not literally, I need to eat first for that). I was terrified of getting married, the thought killed me and the concept wasn't easy for me to grasp. I don't think of marriage as much more than a piece of paper, and all but the paper I was fine with. So why was I so afraid of a paper? Because it had a stamp on it >.>... Bah! So this extra fancy stampy paper has money attached and involves someone who I care about as a human being (That's you Holly >.>...) I think I'll survive that part. Now comes the WHO part.
Upon closer inspection, the people who complain about the roommates they've had, usually complain about the sort of people they meet at work, and whoever they happen to be sleeping with at any given point. The friendships I've seen break from it, were usually based on mutual lack of honest communication and their shared immature outlooks on just about everything. A relationship founded purely on cattiness doesn't fare well when the only people you have to be catty at are each other.
Our relationship is based entirely on sex and booze. Those bonds will stand the test of time!
(^I thought it was funny)
~Naomi Marie
Saturday, March 17, 2012
Friday, March 9, 2012
The ribbon on my wrist...
Am I tired? Not really...
Am I thirsty? I could do with some water, but still not terribly...
Am I hungry? I could eat, but I'm not really hungry...
I have a peanut butter cookie that's too sweet and the overwhelming urge to take a long shower and forget about everything for a few minutes... Or maybe a bath, I'm not sure...
I'm in that weird phase between excited about tomorrow and knowing that it's too early for me to get all-overexcited about things. I still have a tent to roll, but I know where it's at... My costume is ready although not packed... and the blanket tote is full of blankets, but I should really re-fold them. Through all of this all I want to do is burn some energy and I don't know how.
I want snuggles o.o
~Naomi Marie
Am I thirsty? I could do with some water, but still not terribly...
Am I hungry? I could eat, but I'm not really hungry...
I have a peanut butter cookie that's too sweet and the overwhelming urge to take a long shower and forget about everything for a few minutes... Or maybe a bath, I'm not sure...
I'm in that weird phase between excited about tomorrow and knowing that it's too early for me to get all-overexcited about things. I still have a tent to roll, but I know where it's at... My costume is ready although not packed... and the blanket tote is full of blankets, but I should really re-fold them. Through all of this all I want to do is burn some energy and I don't know how.
I want snuggles o.o
~Naomi Marie
Thursday, March 8, 2012
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
I want someone provocative and talkative...
It's about time for me to make another post. Life has been odd recently. Not bad by any stretch, but just odd. I've been doing some preparation for a party coming up this weekend. I've got a costume for Envy all planned out and only have hemming of my dress and rolling of a tent to do before I'm ready with my pre-prep stuff.
I've been in a weird emotional place, though. My moods have gone quickly from excited and confident, to insecure and ready to cry and back again with something as simple as looking too closely in a mirror or not getting enough of a reaction from the newest thing I tried.
I think I blame not getting the same amount of attention that I've gotten spoiled on recently. It could easily be my odd dreams as well, or diet, or water intake. The possibilities are endless (at least I don't have to worry about babies on that list).
I sort of prepared myself for a long drawn out post... but I think I'm actually a little tired o.o Weird!
I wonder how much longer I'll last.
Tea Time~
~Naomi Marie
I've been in a weird emotional place, though. My moods have gone quickly from excited and confident, to insecure and ready to cry and back again with something as simple as looking too closely in a mirror or not getting enough of a reaction from the newest thing I tried.
I think I blame not getting the same amount of attention that I've gotten spoiled on recently. It could easily be my odd dreams as well, or diet, or water intake. The possibilities are endless (at least I don't have to worry about babies on that list).
I sort of prepared myself for a long drawn out post... but I think I'm actually a little tired o.o Weird!
I wonder how much longer I'll last.
Tea Time~
~Naomi Marie
Thursday, March 1, 2012
Sicky sicky...
So wow... Life has been fun recently....
Got to go to an event I've been looking forward to for a while now and see a burlesque performance done by a friend of mine ^.^ It was totally worth the million times that I helped put parts of the costume back on so they could be taken off over and over again... So it wasn't exactly a million... It was closer to 10-ish... but a million sounds SO much more interesting...
Like clockwork, once I got home from a fantastic trip around people I'm both intellectually and physically attracted to, I had a friend-ish person whine and guilt me into visiting with them. (This time he had help from someone I've actually been wanting to visit though so it was even more difficult to say no). I was tired and knew that I should spend the time right after I got home sleeping and reflecting and doing all sorts of other balancing acts that I do after copious amounts of social time. But no, I do the 'nice' thing and drive down to see them. It was nice having girly time with female friend and showing off my, frankly, unreasonable amount of pictures. The person who insists I visit again the moment I leave (every time right after I leave), sat on his laptop and didn't add much to the conversation. I understand that we were partially talking about clothing and makeup and things, but I tried to have a conversation before I went to see her in the back room (where she was hiding because of her migraine). Again, like clockwork, he complained and then talked about wiring before complaining some more. I don't know if he's capable of being positive for more than 5 minutes when it doesn't involve him trying to get me to sleep with him. It's repulsive. If I didn't see some sort of potential in him as a human being I wouldn't put up with it, and I know that I really shouldn't anyway. Why am I such a pushover?
All of this annoyance eventually led to me driving home at around 3am (which isn't usually late for me, but it was after not being able to unwind from a busy weekend) and finally crawling into bed. It's no surprise that when I woke up the next morning it was like a truck hit me.
And thus ends the negative part of this blog ^.~
So I wake up sick, and hydrate, like you're supposed to as a sick person. Travis got me some licorice tea and some food type stuff that I can cook easily because the house is mostly devoid of food-stuffs. Yesterday went even better when I got all sorts of friendly texts from the people I care about the most and got to see some pictures from a photoshoot done to show-case some synthetic dreadlocks that another friend of mine makes. I was only really impressed with two of them, but the two I was impressed with turned out AMAZINGLY. Or at least I think so ^.~
I got to hear from one of the men I secretly really care about even. So it's not really a secret. It's more of an, "I won't actually admit it out loud". I've been missing him. He's a refreshing change from some of the things I deal with on a daily basis, and the lack of complications makes it even nicer. Loving more than one is a difficult sort of life sometimes. o.o It means you're usually missing someone at any given point. Although the idea of having the men I care for most in the same room is sort of an odd thought. Two at a time is acceptable... but any more than that starts to make my brain try and turn inside out.
So I'm trying to think of ways to make a costume to show the deadly sin "Envy". The color scheme would be green, of course, but I'm thinking of ways to bring out the fact that my eyes are green as well. I have a green dress floating around somewhere too, I just need to find it... I was thinking overall a green costume with red accents. We'll see how it goes... If I had the money for synthetic hair I'd consider making myself a few dreads to tie into my hair, but that would be something to ask my sweetie about.
What a world what a world...
~Naomi Marie
Got to go to an event I've been looking forward to for a while now and see a burlesque performance done by a friend of mine ^.^ It was totally worth the million times that I helped put parts of the costume back on so they could be taken off over and over again... So it wasn't exactly a million... It was closer to 10-ish... but a million sounds SO much more interesting...
Like clockwork, once I got home from a fantastic trip around people I'm both intellectually and physically attracted to, I had a friend-ish person whine and guilt me into visiting with them. (This time he had help from someone I've actually been wanting to visit though so it was even more difficult to say no). I was tired and knew that I should spend the time right after I got home sleeping and reflecting and doing all sorts of other balancing acts that I do after copious amounts of social time. But no, I do the 'nice' thing and drive down to see them. It was nice having girly time with female friend and showing off my, frankly, unreasonable amount of pictures. The person who insists I visit again the moment I leave (every time right after I leave), sat on his laptop and didn't add much to the conversation. I understand that we were partially talking about clothing and makeup and things, but I tried to have a conversation before I went to see her in the back room (where she was hiding because of her migraine). Again, like clockwork, he complained and then talked about wiring before complaining some more. I don't know if he's capable of being positive for more than 5 minutes when it doesn't involve him trying to get me to sleep with him. It's repulsive. If I didn't see some sort of potential in him as a human being I wouldn't put up with it, and I know that I really shouldn't anyway. Why am I such a pushover?
All of this annoyance eventually led to me driving home at around 3am (which isn't usually late for me, but it was after not being able to unwind from a busy weekend) and finally crawling into bed. It's no surprise that when I woke up the next morning it was like a truck hit me.
And thus ends the negative part of this blog ^.~
So I wake up sick, and hydrate, like you're supposed to as a sick person. Travis got me some licorice tea and some food type stuff that I can cook easily because the house is mostly devoid of food-stuffs. Yesterday went even better when I got all sorts of friendly texts from the people I care about the most and got to see some pictures from a photoshoot done to show-case some synthetic dreadlocks that another friend of mine makes. I was only really impressed with two of them, but the two I was impressed with turned out AMAZINGLY. Or at least I think so ^.~
I got to hear from one of the men I secretly really care about even. So it's not really a secret. It's more of an, "I won't actually admit it out loud". I've been missing him. He's a refreshing change from some of the things I deal with on a daily basis, and the lack of complications makes it even nicer. Loving more than one is a difficult sort of life sometimes. o.o It means you're usually missing someone at any given point. Although the idea of having the men I care for most in the same room is sort of an odd thought. Two at a time is acceptable... but any more than that starts to make my brain try and turn inside out.
So I'm trying to think of ways to make a costume to show the deadly sin "Envy". The color scheme would be green, of course, but I'm thinking of ways to bring out the fact that my eyes are green as well. I have a green dress floating around somewhere too, I just need to find it... I was thinking overall a green costume with red accents. We'll see how it goes... If I had the money for synthetic hair I'd consider making myself a few dreads to tie into my hair, but that would be something to ask my sweetie about.
What a world what a world...
~Naomi Marie
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