Do you ever wonder?

So this post, like the last one, won't likely be helpful to anyone but me. On top of that, it's only helpful to me because I enjoy typing and getting thoughts out into writing... So essentially, this post is about as useful as any other blog you're likely to read.
Recently, I've been sort of up and down when it comes to my general emotional status. Having so much attention from so many people I care for has gotten me a little spoiled. I didn't get a New Years kiss in person, but I got it via text. Is it bad to say that I'm totally fine with just that considering who it came from? I don't care... it was affection enough.
The holidays, which usually only bring me stress and people I'd rather not spend time with, brought time with people I care about, more cookies than I know what to do with, and a bit of relaxation time... Now there were points where I made the mistake of agreeing to spend time with family, but even while I was there, I had the ability to contact people who gave me a sort of lifeline back to the world of the "Non-Fundamentalist Christians" I live in typically...
It's strange enough being a closet pagan (literally, my altar is in my walk in closet) but when I'm surrounded by people who have no idea about my beliefs and are able to talk about theirs, it leaves me in sort of a difficult position. It doesn't help that my boy, Travis, was there as well, and the rest of my family doesn't know about my other lifestyle choices. Not talking about the other important people in my life is difficult and feels like lying.
Long story short, Christmas was awkward, but New Years Eve/New Years Day was the exact opposite.
Well there were awkward moments... like ending up in nothing but my bra and underwear and attempting to keep those two pieces on while everyone else in the room wants them gone. Even then, that was only awkward because the spare underwear I had in my bag that I put on so I wouldn't end up in just a bra were really unattractive...
I'm not really sure what more to say. I've got a fantastic group of friends who really care about me, more love than I know what to do with, and sort of an overall warm feeling about life. I'm not sure how this next year is going to go, but I think, if I can manage to fight my slow spiral into being horribly spoiled, it will be pretty fantastic...
So much love <3